I have read a two books and watched a management series by Henry Cloud. I have been impressed with his action orientated teaching. When I received an email about a series of Webinars from Dr Cloud and Dr Townsend, I thought I would sign up. I got a little more than I bargained for.
The first webinar was about the barriers to change. Nothing earth shattering or convicting here. It was good information, but I didn't see any of "afraid to change" factors present in me. (I will come back to this - maybe not the best conclusion on my part.)
The second webinar started by a challenge to write down the goal that you have for your life; the reason that you started watching these webinars in the first place. This is where the trouble started. I was unable to come up with a goal. I mean, I have goals, but they seem kind of trivial and really short term - get this project done, wrap up this project, etc.; not the kind of goal that requires life change or a more radical movement. I really could not come up with anything that seemed like a worthwhile goal. That was really disheartening to me - so disheartening I stopped watching the webinar.
Then the questioning started. Have I become so complacent and content in my life that I have no aspirations anymore? Have I achieved everything that I am supposed to achieve? Am I afraid to step out? Have I closed my mind to the possibility of larger goals because I am comfortable? Am I just too tired to aspire? Positive answers to any of these questions is depressing.
Here is the problem. I am a mountain climber. I love to dream and make those dreams reality. I love to move forward. I love to change. I love to be a change agent. This is how I am wired and one of the contributions that I believe I bring to this world. I think this is where the "depression" set in: the gap between were I am (no goals) and who I believe I am (action orientated).
OK, so I have to do some work. I have to make sure that there are no personal barriers to me changing or moving - that I am not lying to myself when I thought that I got a passing grade on all the reasons why people don't change. Secondly, I believe that I need to listen more to the Spirit. I cannot believe that He is done with me - that I have no other mountains to climb. I just need to listen, clearly listen to what He would have me do.
One of my driving passions has been to spend/invest my life - not to waste it. Being sedentary is wasting it......
I guess the reason I wrote this is so that you do not become complacent either. Do not waste your life. Keep moving and don't be content with the status quo.